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It has been a while since I wrote on blog. Let me take this opportunity to congratulate all the new moms and the new preggie ladies. Your dreams and wishes has come true.

I have started on my journey on IVF number 3 and I am all excited and happy again. I pray that 2010 will be our year and that we will be blessed with our little bundle of Joy. I have Faith and Believe our Merciful God sees our pain and all in His time. I pray that our time is now, if not I will pray for strength and start all over again! With the support of my Fellow TTC, Preggie, Mommies etc. I will make it through.

It's been a while

Sjoe it's been quite a few months that I posted! I have an excuse I have been sooo hectically busy and missed all my OPM friends! Hardly had time to go on and now the holidays has dawned upon me and I welcome it with open arms. It has seriously been a very long year and a busy one indeed, many hurdles crossed and with pride I can say managed to overcome them. I have pillars of strength in my life for that I am truly Thankful. I would just like to take this time to wish everyone a Merry Xmas and a Happy New Year and 2010 is almost here! Here's to a wonderful year ahead and we pray for happy things!

It's been a while.......

..... since I last posted, but I am happy to report that I am dealing with my IVF disappointment quite well thanks to all the support from OPM and other family and friends and ja the workload has doubled too so it gave me less time to think. But on a serious note, I have really dealt with this IVF failure much better than the first and yet I thought I handled that one! Ya right!!! More like I was in denial! But anyway, DH and I are spending some wonderful quality time and I must say it is a huge relief not to think about IVF (injections, blood, follies), stressing about this on a dialy basis! I have taken control of my life again and I am living it up until next year. It is so wonderful not having to think about ttc'ing for a while, I forgot what it feels like to be sane. My family has really been wonderful and my OPM friends are still wonderful everyday, I never thought I would have this many friends at the same time in my life which I care so much about! THANK YOU GIRLS!!!!!!

Egg retrieval

So I have finally reached this stage of my IVF, and yes to my dissappointment there were no eggs in the follicles. 12 Follicles and not one eggie!!! I have so many questions running through my head and not one answer? This is where the "Why" creeps in and takes over my entire thoughts. I am so sad and don't know what to think anymore. There is always something wrong. Will I ever be a mom, I am afraid of hoping and afraid of giving up! You cry and cry but what does it help, all those tears what for???? Is the a test of Faith? I really don't know, all I know is this is very difficult for me at this stage. Where do we go from here? Does this mean I do not have any eggs? GOD please help me understand this!

Follies update

After going for numerous scans and being on day 14 of Menopur, FS decided not to increase meds to avoid overstimulating. Good news is I have 4 growing follies and many smaller ones measuring 10mm (that was on Wednesday). So my next scan is tomorrow and praying that there might be more follies that decided to grow up and make me a mommy and I am so praying that the ones that are fighting to be the last embaby standing grow and mature beautifully for me! I am sooooo nervous because if all goes well tomorrow I might trigger soon and this means I will be going for ER this time, I so don't want to jinx this but everything seems positive, dr is quite happy with how things worked out, he said the smaller follies might not grow but we will see on Friday! So I am excited, uncomfortable and scared sh#tless at the same time. But I am leaving this in the Almighty's hands, only HE will know if it is my time! I will be sad but I know I serve a great God and HE knows when the right time is! To my OPM cycle buddy Eve, I am praying for you my friend that your embabies stick and make you the happiest woman on earth! Here is the lots of OPM BFP's!!!!!!!