Life

I have been through a very difficult time these couple of weeks without knowing how much has been weighing on my shoulders. My marriage has been under threat which brought me to a total meltdown. Life as I knew it would change forever for me, which way forward at the time for me was completely unknown which scared the crap out of me. My husband has been my whole life for the longest time, my pillar of strength, my lover, my friend and most of all THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. For years I lived in a bubble, a bubble I created because of messed up childhood. Scary part I never ever realised it and it almost destroyed the one thing that means the world to me, my marriage. I have been through many trials and tribulations in my life but the one battle I will fight to the end is for my Marriage. My husband loves me dearly and I him, but sometimes ladies we are too blind to see how we live life and how we mirror the past. I finally broke that mirror after 16 years. I will not live in the reflection of my past, I will thank the Almighty for a new day, and a new life for my life has started now because my eyes has opened to the mistakes I made throughout my life because of my painful childhood and most of my adulthood, but I will not let this take over my life because I have found true happiness. I know that I will be blessed with my own family soon and I need to live for the present and forget the past. Here is to the new book of my life that has started just but a couple of days ago. We serve a wonderful God/Allah, He shows us the way in so many ways it is for us to open our eyes to the light.