My Emotions 1 Day until testing

Last night while praying I made peace with whatever happens tomorrow. It is difficult to think that it could be a BFN and soooo exciting to think that I could actually get that long awaited BFP tomorrow. When I prayed last night I handed it all to the Almighty and I will accept whatever the outcome will be tomorrow and I am at peace with that.

Testing in two days

Still have my sanity but that is definitely debatable. I am trying to stay positive and have Faith. I have been really overwhelmed by all the support I have received over the past 2 -3 weeks now, it has really been my pillar of strength. I feel so loved and cared for it's just amazing and most of my support system I have never ever ever met in my life, but they have become my best friends over the past few years and each year I feel more blessed than the year before. I just hope that one (hopefully soon) I get to meet each one of the ladies who have been so great, so caring and so supportive to me, not just now, but through this whole journey of fertility. This rollercoaster has been a hell of journey and hopefully soon I pray I will be getting off for a while! Hahahahahaha it will probably be the happiest day in our life together. I feel so blessed to be so loved. Thank you Thank You , you all know who you are and I just hope one day I will be able to return the favour.

7dp2dt and Stressing

I will be testing in 5 Days time and I am starting to stress again, I was so calm and positive the past week and now that anxiety of failure has returned, the 2ww sucks big time and really messes with ones emotions. At the moment I am have strong AF like cramps and lower back pain and it feels like AF is going to start any time soon now, running to the loo every few minutes to check if AF has started. Ai ja what can I do but wait and wait and wait................. I want to stay positive this time around but ja what can I say!

The Long Wait

This is not the best place to be at all, but I am trying to stay sane. I have enjoyed endless support from my dear friends through this very challenging and hair raising time. I just pray that our Creator will shine upon us and bless us abundantly for we are finally 100% committed to being parents both DH and I and for the first time since I started this journey I am not afraid of becoming a mother, I am excited to learn the new things the new journey could possibly bring into my life. Counting the days to 8th June and pray that it be the second best day of my life (the first being the day I married my husband who is truly a gift from GOD).