Tuesday, June 7, 2011

My Emotions 1 Day until testing

Last night while praying I made peace with whatever happens tomorrow. It is difficult to think that it could be a BFN and soooo exciting to think that I could actually get that long awaited BFP tomorrow. When I prayed last night I handed it all to the Almighty and I will accept whatever the outcome will be tomorrow and I am at peace with that.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Testing in two days

Still have my sanity but that is definitely debatable. I am trying to stay positive and have Faith. I have been really overwhelmed by all the support I have received over the past 2 -3 weeks now, it has really been my pillar of strength. I feel so loved and cared for it's just amazing and most of my support system I have never ever ever met in my life, but they have become my best friends over the past few years and each year I feel more blessed than the year before. I just hope that one (hopefully soon) I get to meet each one of the ladies who have been so great, so caring and so supportive to me, not just now, but through this whole journey of fertility. This rollercoaster has been a hell of journey and hopefully soon I pray I will be getting off for a while! Hahahahahaha it will probably be the happiest day in our life together. I feel so blessed to be so loved. Thank you Thank You , you all know who you are and I just hope one day I will be able to return the favour.

Friday, June 3, 2011

7dp2dt and Stressing

I will be testing in 5 Days time and I am starting to stress again, I was so calm and positive the past week and now that anxiety of failure has returned, the 2ww sucks big time and really messes with ones emotions. At the moment I am have strong AF like cramps and lower back pain and it feels like AF is going to start any time soon now, running to the loo every few minutes to check if AF has started. Ai ja what can I do but wait and wait and wait................. I want to stay positive this time around but ja what can I say!

Thursday, June 2, 2011

The Long Wait

This is not the best place to be at all, but I am trying to stay sane. I have enjoyed endless support from my dear friends through this very challenging and hair raising time. I just pray that our Creator will shine upon us and bless us abundantly for we are finally 100% committed to being parents both DH and I and for the first time since I started this journey I am not afraid of becoming a mother, I am excited to learn the new things the new journey could possibly bring into my life. Counting the days to 8th June and pray that it be the second best day of my life (the first being the day I married my husband who is truly a gift from GOD).

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

2011 Hoping for new Beginnings

It is unbelievable, 2011 is creeped up on me soooo fast, but I welcome it with open arms. 2010 has been ........ well a fascinating year, and with the grace of God most of us made it to 2011 with our health and many blessings to be grateful for. I pray that this year will be even more blessed for many people in my life.

2011 comes to me with no new years resolutions and no great expectations only with belief in our Almighty and thankfulness for every blessing I have received in my life for the past 32 years. Life is full of surprises and it's how we deal with those surprises that determines our true happiness in life. My wish for 2011 is to be a good wife, daughter, sister and aunt but most of to be a humble servant to our Almighty for He bestows blessings upon us each and everyday, sometimes we are just to blind to see. So here is to a great 2011 and I say Thank you for always being my friend!