Egg retrieval

So I have finally reached this stage of my IVF, and yes to my dissappointment there were no eggs in the follicles. 12 Follicles and not one eggie!!! I have so many questions running through my head and not one answer? This is where the "Why" creeps in and takes over my entire thoughts. I am so sad and don't know what to think anymore. There is always something wrong. Will I ever be a mom, I am afraid of hoping and afraid of giving up! You cry and cry but what does it help, all those tears what for???? Is the a test of Faith? I really don't know, all I know is this is very difficult for me at this stage. Where do we go from here? Does this mean I do not have any eggs? GOD please help me understand this!

Follies update

After going for numerous scans and being on day 14 of Menopur, FS decided not to increase meds to avoid overstimulating. Good news is I have 4 growing follies and many smaller ones measuring 10mm (that was on Wednesday). So my next scan is tomorrow and praying that there might be more follies that decided to grow up and make me a mommy and I am so praying that the ones that are fighting to be the last embaby standing grow and mature beautifully for me! I am sooooo nervous because if all goes well tomorrow I might trigger soon and this means I will be going for ER this time, I so don't want to jinx this but everything seems positive, dr is quite happy with how things worked out, he said the smaller follies might not grow but we will see on Friday! So I am excited, uncomfortable and scared sh#tless at the same time. But I am leaving this in the Almighty's hands, only HE will know if it is my time! I will be sad but I know I serve a great God and HE knows when the right time is! To my OPM cycle buddy Eve, I am praying for you my friend that your embabies stick and make you the happiest woman on earth! Here is the lots of OPM BFP's!!!!!!!

My First Follies scan

This is the day that made me soooooo nervous, I have quite a few follies again. Less than last time which is good, so I will be staying on 1amp Menopur for today and tomorrow and then go back for a second scan on Thursday. I am so nervous because I fear that my cycle could be cancelled again, but I feel positive about this one. This is really emotional rollercoaster but I know in the end it will be all worthwhile when we hold that bundle of joy in your arms!!!! I just pray that the Almighty blesses us with a Little one or two! To everyone else trying I am praying for you guys!