7dp2dt and Stressing

I will be testing in 5 Days time and I am starting to stress again, I was so calm and positive the past week and now that anxiety of failure has returned, the 2ww sucks big time and really messes with ones emotions. At the moment I am have strong AF like cramps and lower back pain and it feels like AF is going to start any time soon now, running to the loo every few minutes to check if AF has started. Ai ja what can I do but wait and wait and wait................. I want to stay positive this time around but ja what can I say!

The Long Wait

This is not the best place to be at all, but I am trying to stay sane. I have enjoyed endless support from my dear friends through this very challenging and hair raising time. I just pray that our Creator will shine upon us and bless us abundantly for we are finally 100% committed to being parents both DH and I and for the first time since I started this journey I am not afraid of becoming a mother, I am excited to learn the new things the new journey could possibly bring into my life. Counting the days to 8th June and pray that it be the second best day of my life (the first being the day I married my husband who is truly a gift from GOD).

2011 Hoping for new Beginnings

It is unbelievable, 2011 is creeped up on me soooo fast, but I welcome it with open arms. 2010 has been ........ well a fascinating year, and with the grace of God most of us made it to 2011 with our health and many blessings to be grateful for. I pray that this year will be even more blessed for many people in my life.

2011 comes to me with no new years resolutions and no great expectations only with belief in our Almighty and thankfulness for every blessing I have received in my life for the past 32 years. Life is full of surprises and it's how we deal with those surprises that determines our true happiness in life. My wish for 2011 is to be a good wife, daughter, sister and aunt but most of to be a humble servant to our Almighty for He bestows blessings upon us each and everyday, sometimes we are just to blind to see. So here is to a great 2011 and I say Thank you for always being my friend!

Bad Blogger

I have been a really bad blogger this year, even though has been so many things happening in my life this year. This has been an interesting year in life personally and professionally. On the ttc'ing front nothing really happening, good thing is that I have a regular 28 day cycle. My next appointment is on the 24 November, also writing exams on this day. We are hoping to start our 4th IVF in January, hoping and praying that we get the all clear in November. I guess that is all for now!

Mother's Day

Yes to some this is a beautiful day to celebrate all the moms and the sacrifices etc etc. and for some of us this is a very tough day to get through because it is another year passing by and a reminder where you fail in the Fertility. Some reading this right now might think "what a drama queen" but believe me ladies this aint easy and many reading this right now knows exactly what I am speaking about. I do accept a lot of things but it does not mean that it is easy. So yes this is my 4th Failed Mothers Day and it makes me sad, this year my husband made it a bit bearable and for that I thank you MY WONDERFUL HUSBAND! I love you with all my heart, you are my sanity!